Today was my last day of work. I had so many bittersweet moments. Theoretically, moving on is the right thing to do. I may have had a future here - maybe a manager title in 1 year and a senior manager title in the next 3 - 5 years and so on and so forth. But I would not be doing something I love.
How easy it is for anyone to tell you, follow your passion, do what you love. It's so much harder to practice that in real life. So much harder.
Last month when I resigned, it wasn't so hard. I was less emotional. I had another job offer in hand. I was sure of my decision. All it took was an email.
But between yesterday and today, I am less sure and more nervous. What if leaving such a safe secure job in this big company was not the wisest decision. I did do a pros and cons list, leaving my current job was the outcome. Then why was it so hard to say goodbye and actually walk out of the building?
A special mention to how socially awkward I am, I can get really weird when emotions are high, like today. Whom do I say a goodbye to - will an email do? Or should I say a personal goodbye. A hug or a handshake? I doubt there is a right way (right? Or is there a book on how to leave gracefully that I completely missed)
Eventually, I got busy today, as and when I saw people, I said my goodbyes. Some awkward hugs. The weird thing is, I was on the other side for so long. Saying goodbye to people who were moving on. We say such sweet things - keep in touch, you should visit us, we will miss you, don't forget us - but today I realized that's just cushion talk, is it not? Out of the 10 people who say they will miss you - maybe a couple will. 20% truth ratio, but I'm happy for the rest 80% that do the sweet talking - it did make me feel good - it makes life sweeter I suppose.
That's life. So, as awkward as it was today, I am confident life will move on, ex-colleagues will become good memories.
But why am I feeling so restless? It's 12:15 am - I should be asleep - I literally have no work tomorrow. Because over time - there'll be those one or two people who will touch your heart - those people I will terribly miss; the ones that when you think about, your heart aches - why couldn't this be my dream job with my dream salary - then everything would've been good - I wouldn't have to say goodbye. Well, that's also life.
You do what is right for you. This maybe a dream company for so many - it was for me as well. But if you're not happy and if it isn't working for you, I guess you have to take a leap of faith.
How easy it is for anyone to tell you, follow your passion, do what you love. It's so much harder to practice that in real life. So much harder.
Last month when I resigned, it wasn't so hard. I was less emotional. I had another job offer in hand. I was sure of my decision. All it took was an email.
But between yesterday and today, I am less sure and more nervous. What if leaving such a safe secure job in this big company was not the wisest decision. I did do a pros and cons list, leaving my current job was the outcome. Then why was it so hard to say goodbye and actually walk out of the building?
A special mention to how socially awkward I am, I can get really weird when emotions are high, like today. Whom do I say a goodbye to - will an email do? Or should I say a personal goodbye. A hug or a handshake? I doubt there is a right way (right? Or is there a book on how to leave gracefully that I completely missed)
Eventually, I got busy today, as and when I saw people, I said my goodbyes. Some awkward hugs. The weird thing is, I was on the other side for so long. Saying goodbye to people who were moving on. We say such sweet things - keep in touch, you should visit us, we will miss you, don't forget us - but today I realized that's just cushion talk, is it not? Out of the 10 people who say they will miss you - maybe a couple will. 20% truth ratio, but I'm happy for the rest 80% that do the sweet talking - it did make me feel good - it makes life sweeter I suppose.
That's life. So, as awkward as it was today, I am confident life will move on, ex-colleagues will become good memories.
But why am I feeling so restless? It's 12:15 am - I should be asleep - I literally have no work tomorrow. Because over time - there'll be those one or two people who will touch your heart - those people I will terribly miss; the ones that when you think about, your heart aches - why couldn't this be my dream job with my dream salary - then everything would've been good - I wouldn't have to say goodbye. Well, that's also life.
You do what is right for you. This maybe a dream company for so many - it was for me as well. But if you're not happy and if it isn't working for you, I guess you have to take a leap of faith.
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